Deserve It?

Do you think you deserve the good you have? I didn’t. But through what I’ve been learning in Christian Science, I now realize that, since we all are God’s children, we don’t deserve to be expressions of Truth, Life, and Love, we simply are. Like banana bread doesn’t deserve to be banana bread, it just is. This revelation has helped me greatly, as I’ve often sabotaged my own progress by feeling that I have done nothing to deserve good.

Thinking and worrying about whether I deserved anything was a waste of time. The only suitable way forward is to embrace the fact that I am God’s idea and to strive to express Truth, Life, and Love always.

Something which often goes hand-in-hand with this is wondering why something happened. Since I can no longer say either, “Well, it’s what I deserved” or “I guess I didn’t deserve it,” I’ve needed to look at the concept of “why” more closely.

The concept of “why” is just as meaningless as “deserve.” Christian Science, as taught through our Lessons and discussions here in Plainfield, is showing me that when good happens, I need to understand that it comes from God and to be grateful for it. On the other hand, if something that seems bad happens, I need to look at my thinking and see what I am not handling.

Injecting that additional step in there, where I wondered “why is this happening,” was not only pointless, but was often a way to avoid making useful changes in my life. Cutting through the question altogether, with the understanding that Christian Science is bringing to me, is such a blessing!

It is astonishing that my thinking was so clogged! Without this church, and without the authentic Christian Science taught here, I would still be stuck. I am very grateful to see in my own life, and through all the testimonies week after week, the wonderful changes that occur with certainty once Christ’s Christianity is brought into our lives.