God Answers Prayer

I am incredibly grateful to God for saving me. In 2013 a series of poor choices finally caught up with me, and left me in a place where I was absolutely convinced the world, and especially my kids, would be better off if I was dead. I was moments away from suicide when—almost involuntarily—I said out loud, “God, I need your help.” A few minutes later my kids called, and my daughter said she had been distraught all day because she had a dream where I said I was leaving but wouldn’t tell her where I was going. Once off the phone, I thanked God, and tried to figure out where to go next.

But then I woke the next morning feeling once again that everything would be better for those I knew if I was dead. So then as I sat on the couch, I once again asked God for help. Almost as soon as I was done saying it, a squirrel jumped onto the window screen to the left of me, and a blackbird jumped onto the window screen to the right. For the next 20 minutes they looked at me. At first I was shocked, and then I just laughed! How absurd! There was no way that was coincidental. I felt that God had been watching and waiting for me to be ready.

At that moment I knew I wasn’t going to need a third try. Whatever God needed me for, I was here to do. And within two weeks I was directed here to Plainfield. And now, twenty months later, every single day I am grateful to be alive and useful and working for His glory. I am also grateful because I know that what happened to me wasn’t the equivalent of winning God’s lottery. Divine Love is working to bring all of us out of the personal hell of the human mind into the kingdom of heaven that is already within us. That is so wonderful, and it is a blessing to be a part of this church and its mission.