Healing of A Lifetime Feeling of Being Ugly

In Psalm 17:15 we read – “As for me, I will behold thy face in righteousness: I shall be satisfied, when I awake, with thy likeness.” Some of my earliest memories are of various strangers coming up to me and telling me how ugly I was. I remember the first time this happened, it really upset me, because until that moment I had never thought of how I looked to other people. I was just a really young child, probably only three years old, and my mother just laughed about it, but we never spoke any more about it. Well, this sort of thing happened enough that I finally just took it for the truth, and accepted it at first, but then it got to the point with other people and school kids reinforcing it, where I actually felt bad for the people around me because they had to deal with such an ugly person in their midst.

As you can probably imagine, it was pretty messed up to feel that way about myself, and it went on for decades until I came to this church and we had Psalm 17:15 in a lesson. I realized that it doesn’t truly matter how I appear from a human point of view, especially since I can’t really change how other people feel about me, but God did give me the ability to change my perspective and change how I feel about myself. This revelation healed me of all that pain I had around whether or not I was ugly, and showed me that it is really up to me to take in Christian Science and live it, so that I can learn to behold God’s face in righteousness and be satisfied, and awake with His likeness.

I am so grateful for this healing. An additional bit of understanding I am grateful for through all this, is the fact that there are seemingly many ways we can become deluded to think wrongly, but there is only one true method so that we may “Let this mind be in [us], which was also in Christ Jesus” (Philippians 2:5) and that is through the pure Christian Science as discovered by Mary Baker Eddy. I am so grateful for all this church provides, I am grateful for all those years of practitioner support I had which brought so many healings.